Hey everyone, I’m not going to lie I kind of gave up on this blog. Life is still feeling kind of tough and honestly I am so tired all the time, but recently I’ve noticed a lot of people following this blog and reading it. I felt it was unfair for you to follow something that is inactive.
Here’s the thing, I love makeup, I still do. But I do not have the time nor the energy to continuously post tutorials or beauty related blogs and I while I love beauty it’s not something I talk about on the daily. With that in mind you’ll start to notice that this blog is going to have a bit of a revamp, I might post about beauty occasionally but ideally I want to be able to write about the things going on- the important things.
I turned 21 on Tuesday, it’s weird to feel old but still be considered so young. I feel like 19-25 is an awkward age bracket where you feel like you’re getting older but the you’re still so young and inexperienced in the world. I have friends who are engaged, have built their own house, who are about to have their first child. Here I am still living at home, having just turned 21 and I got Ariel Lego for my birthday (hold your judgement I love Lego). I’d like to add that while I live at home I study full time at university and I work fairly regular hours at a retail job. I used to also do tafe courses and volunteer but uni is killing me at the moment. So it’s not like I’m completely unaccomplished but it’s hard to not compare yourself to your peers.
As a 16 year old I thought at 21 I would have it all figured out, it’s funny how your expectations as a teenager are completely shot down as an actual adult. So what am I doing, or what do I want to do? Honestly, I don’t completely know but who does? I know I want to do some traveling next year, I know that I MIGHT want to do a post-graduate in publishing, I know that I’m tired of basing all my choices on how it will effect other people’s feelings. I’m ready for 21 to be the year that I do me and I act selfish. The year that I go on book and ice cream adventures on my own. The year I take up a dance class and maybe return to music. 21 is a bit of lonelier year for me but I’m going to fill that loneliness with experiences.
Jess R xo